In the past year, I have been going thru life. Hard. Emotions, are crazy. Yes, Life sucks and I am trying my best to become ME again. I am not quite their. I really believe my next step is to really shin in life like I am suppose to. No, not spot light shine. I don’t care for the spotlight. I am talking about my soul, my voice. Make a difference someway, somewhere. To be unforgettable! Leave a mark in others hearts! I have a plan to start my next chapter and I am so excited but scared at the same time. I am doing this for my soul, to let it heal. A new approach in life. For ME.
I haven’t felt that good about myself. I have let my depression control ever aspect of my life. I have found it extremely hard to overcome it, this time. It has been a constant dark cloud over my head. I have felt like I have disappointed myself and others. It has been really sitting on my chest. Heavy!
But.. I have to stay FOCUSED!
As I lay under the stars. Thoughts engulfed by worries, life is about to change. I have had to many heartaches. Now it was time for me to become the women I was raised to be. I have the strength and faith in myself. Time to take care of myself. I will save my heart, put up walls. Until I am ready to give it to someone who deserves it. Prove that they will handle with care.
A goal without a timeline is just a Dream….
My fingers caress the page, remebering the last chapters. Tears escape, always full of emotion. I knew when I turned to the next page. The next chapter. The last chapter. There has to be happily ever after for this character .
It seems I am withering away. Both my mind and soul. Dissolving with the breeze of air. As the air swirls thru the clouds with blue skies. Thoughts of “This is where I need to be”.
Am I good enough? A silent yes rings in my ear, I feel so much. To much, at times. Unbearable. My heart wants to strengthen with knowing I am who I am. Bring all the good to the edges of my heart, block out all the negative thoughts and feelings
You climb mountians in life, repeatedly. It makes you stronger each time. You appreciate more beauty around. Your heart puts up walls with each step but softens at the same time. For those around climbing their mountains.